13 January 2006

teeth falling out, fire, intermittent hypoxia and grant deadlines

I've been dreaming a lot lately (that means each of the last 3 nights). I don't remember what they were about, but the first involved teeth falling out. Big molars from the top, right side. I had a magnified view of my own mouth and the teeth just slid off and were filled in rather than hollow and raggedy-edged like in real life. I thought my roommate told me teeth falling out meant something about getting rich soon, but when I asked she said it means anxiety, worry, embarrassment or a fixation on appearance. I've had a lot of anxiety from finances and deadlines at work lately... Or it just means I should get that cavity filled before my tooth really does fall out! At any rate, I'm disappointed it doesn't mean I'll be getting rich soon.

Another dream involved fire. Apparently fire means passion or desire. Huh.
So, moving on to other things, I might get to participate in a research study on the effects of intermittent hypoxia, that is, not getting enough oxygen for part of the day during the course of a month. I asked my boss (a scientist) for permission to participate since some of it will be during work hours, and he granted it to me with the comment "hope the hypoxia will not be bad for you!" great. me too. Anyway, I'm not the first and some elite runners do this all the time for training, so I figure the most damage it could do is take a couple years off my life. And since I believe that this life isn't the whole picture, that's not so bad.

Today we submitted a grant application over which I had severe stress this week due to thinking I had absolutely screwed up the entire thing. However, I didn't, and today it was successfully submitted and my relief is immense. I have 15 minutes of work left before the long weekend sets in, and things are looking up. Of course, now that the initial relief is over, my original stresses are settling back in to their customary places and I'm not feeling quite as relaxed and jubilant as I was 30 minutes ago. *sigh* Can't have it all, eh? But I still get my long weekend :)

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